Category Archives: Wishes
This post has been a long time coming, but recent dreams have made it a necessity, so I can explore my thoughts on this subject.
First, so we’re all on the same page – let me do a bit of explaining. Mistress and I had been doing a little bit of reading over on Sugarbutch. Ohhhh that blog gets me in trouble. We were reading a few of the posts Sinclair writes about his daddy/girl experiences, and Mistress let it slip that she liked it. We didn’t really discuss it much more than that, but I’m pretty sure we both remember the conversation.
Then, last night, I had a dream. One of those fantastically vivid dreams. I dreamed that Mistress was fucking me hard. In a moment of childishness, I reached up, tugging on her neck and pouting a bit, and said “fuck me harder, daddy!” The dream continued and these tiny moments happened again and again. Once, as she kissed me softly, I pulled back for a moment, whispering a tiny “thank you, daddy” into her mouth. Again, as we were teasing each other in a casual foreplay. She flicked my clit just once, and a tiny “daddy” came out as a soft moan. And finally, perhaps my favorite moment of all, when we were snuggled after sex just talking softly before we fell asleep, I absentmindedly whispered “I love you daddy”, and she smiled.
When I woke up this morning, I realized that I really like all this “daddy” talk. I texted Mistress about it this afternoon, and she had just as favorable a reaction as I had. But it just makes sense. She’s my protector and always makes sure I’m happy, and she spoils me. I’m her little one, her baby. So if the occasional “daddy” slipped out during sex, I don’t think I’d be too upset. In fact, I’d probably find it incredibly sexy.
But anyway. A part of me thinks I’m just missing Mistress a lot today. It’s okay though. Four more days until I can fall asleep in her arms again.
My parting thought to you – pillow talk from what I think would be Mistress’ perspective:
All the aftercare pillowtalk when her eyes sparkle and she is flushed, glowing. All that light in her laugh and feather-soft touches make me feel easier, like I make sense. I’ve said it before but she is very easy to love, easy to spend time with, easy to adore, easy to shower with affection.
I’m so excited! Next weekend is the first time Mistress and I will be able to spend more than just a couple hours together since May. In fact, I’ll be able to spend two whole nights in her bed! Soooo excited! We have a massive wishlist of things we want to try this schoolyear but this coming weekend is particularly special for a couple reasons:
- Mistress and I have picked out and purchased a strap-on. Not just any strap-on either, but one that’ll satisfy my cravings for deeeeeeepp penetration. We’ll (hopefully) be breaking it in and practicing, so I’m extremely excited for all aspects of that. I don’t know how much of it we’ll get to next weekend but I definitely want to practice a bit before the big trip in a month.
- I own a set of nipple clamps, but next weekend will be the first time that Mistress will get a chance to use them on me herself instead of instructing me from afar.
- The same goes for my anal plug. We tried to use it once this summer but there just wasn’t enough time or space to do it without actually hurting me.
- The snuggling. Ohhmygoodness the snuggling. I’m Mistress’ little cuddle whore and I think I’m more excited about falling asleep in her arms or her in mine than anything else. It’s something that I’ve missed so much this summer. So much so that I’ve gotten out of work some days and texted her, saying “lets snuggle tonight”. She’ll text back agreeing, and then I’ll head home, snuggling under the blankets and cuddling my pillow and her shirt tightly against me.
- Making it all about her. This summer has been so much about me, in terms of the sex, unfortunately. Next weekend, Mistress will be tired from her activities during the day, and I fully intend to snuggle on the couch or something while she’s watching tv and just suck on her nipples, since she loves that so much.
I’m really excited, if you couldn’t tell, and I’m sure I’ll have a lot to report!
So Mistress used “heel” for the first time yesterday. Pardon me for sounding like a sorority girl, but ohmygod it was perfect. We were walking down the sidewalk and she said something that provoked me, and I stopped walking. She turned around, and looking at me, simply said “heel”. It was so simple, so subtle, that it was perfect. I obeyed, walking the regulatory one pace behind, until she offered me her arm and indicated that I could walk next to her again.
As the day progressed, one more simple d/s moment slipped into our afternoon. As Mistress was engaging in her usual tease/denial activities, she progressed to actual sex. I promised that I wouldn’t orgasm until she allowed it, and she looked back at me smiling, knowing I’d obey. she coaxed me to the edge of orgasm and I backed myself off. She coaxed again and I backed down. She coaxed once more and once more I backed down. Mistress was genuinely pleased that I had backed myself off the edge no less than five times before she allowed me to orgasm.
Yesterday was a mix of interesting and perfect. 🙂
The parts for my collar also arrived in the mail yesterday and I literally cannot WAIT until O/our small and simple collaring ceremony. I’ve been working extremely hard on my Statement of Commitment, as well as the editing of O/our contract and I am truly excited to see them be put to use.
I apologize for the randomness of this post but I had one final thought that I wanted to document. I’ve been thinking about asking Mistress to use Operant Conditioning. There are four things in Pavlovian Conditioning; Unconditioned stimulus (US), Unconditioned Response (UR), Conditioned Stimulus (CS) and Conditioned Response (CR). If Mistress were to correlate a simple act with a sexual one (say licking something off her finger correlated to a clitoral orgasm or running her fingers through her hair to very hard making out), she could, in effect, train me to be aroused by simple casual acts. The effect, I believe, could be quite delicious.
So, if Mistress ever did either one of these things to me, I might die from pleasure. The first one, because I love pain inflicted on my nipples. Mistress has noticed that lately and has been taking advantage of it, but I love how the position in the first picture reduces the woman to a state of completely and utterly powerless submission. The second one because I love when Mistress initiates kisses and I love the clear power that the dominant woman has in that kiss.
Just my thoughts 🙂